Chris Froome.

  As always with the tour conversation will always go to doping, there’s no way for one second that I think Contador at his age can be that competitive when all the science dictates that he should be on the decline, and that guy from Drapac, that used to be Garmin slipstream that dopey David…

Special Liez. Calling bullshit.

This is quite a painful rant to write as I turn my back on Specialized, anyone who’s read this blog know how much I love their bikes, how much I bought into their Rider First Engineering and how much I value their investment in things like ReTul and their support of cycling but now it…

I want to be a Grimpeur

The effects of not riding on my fitness are tragic, I’m sure there must be long term respiratory suppressant effect to the amount of pain medication I’ve been taking, my body feels lazy and on the trainer that estimated 20 min delay in your cardio system to catch up with the work of your biomechanical…

Week 3

So I’ve switched from days to weeks because this is quickly turning into a week in review. This week was supposed to be another rant about Rapha and how don’t seem to acknowledge the variance in women who ride and their piss poor female customer engagement. However. I’ve just had a spanking ride, it wasn’t…

Week 2

Being in my mid 40s with a history of drug addiction and smoking I have to accept that I can only get my body to perform one sporting at any one time. I can’t for example train towards doing an hour record while also keeping my body in a condition where I could do a…

Week 1

I had my first ride on the roads on the second of June, Strava recorded it as 86% at zone one, it was really wonderful to be outside in the early morning air, one of the joys of getting up at 0400 is the roads are really quiet and Richmond Park isn’t open to cars,…

Counting the cost

Since my crash the NHS has been amazing, if you’re in the US you might find it odd, personally I find it just as odd that you have to pay extra for your care, the NHS is brilliant and I find myself wondering how much would have my care cost in the US. I see…

The reason it’s over.

Since my brain damage I’ve been struggling with other aspects of my mental wellbeing and I’m in therapy to help try and find a coping mechanism to help me manage my reaction to having my Phd knocked out of my head and the issues around my feeling worthless, and it’s truly that. I’m no longer…

More on my brain damage

Weeks after spine surgery and my physical recovery is rather remarkable, my brain damage on the other hand is kicking my arse all over South London. When I was at school I was picked on and bullied so in reaction to that I threw myself into my education, I was that “never missed a day”…

Post Surgical Glow.

This time last week I was discharged from hospital following stage one of the fix my back surgeries and it really was as life changing as the accident that caused it. When I got wheeled in Mr Marsh was chatting to one of the team, asked me how I was feeling and said “ this…

The things you can do….

I’ve decided to get my head out of my arse and try not to be so bleak about the current broken back, brain damage, still a bit wonky situation. It’s true that I’ve been a down in the dumps, and it’s not just the constant pain, the lack of sleeping and the work thing but…

Keep calm they say.

I’ve agonised and cried a lot this weekend, since deciding on the British Women’s Master’s Hour and then breaking my back and then still waiting for surgery I was beginning to feel a little tested, this weekend I opened the first letter that advised against me doing the record due to my spine condition and…