Cardiology

Having spoken to a the cardiac specialist m “ cardiac event” has been downgraded to an electrical spike “come back in 20 years and we’ll fit you a pacer” the woman said before happy “cheerio” Since the max spike of 237bpm I’ve been properly poked about the heart area, I’ve had numerous ECG, spoken to…

Garden not gears

Since what has now been classified as a ‘cardiac event’ and not riding I actually feel better about things, I’m not angry at myself for being shit but also because I get to do other things. Being a Geordie bird that predates home computing one of the things we used to do as kids was…

Deferred.

I’ve withdrawn from the Prudential Ride London 100 while the doctors figure out what’s going on with my heart and everything else. I can’t breathe, I have no energy and I collapsed at the weekend landing back in hospital being poked and prodded, more ECG and those auto blood pressure cuff things really do hurt,…

Way Out.

If you believe that American small handed orange faced gibbon you might believe that the NHS is on its knees, of course he wants to say that because the US medical system is shit and only caters to those with money. On Tuesday while out playing bike my heart rate spiked at 237 bpm and…

Still working through my damage.

Prior to my crash life wasn’t perfect, far from it, I had the same problems as everyone else. No matter how much I earned it wasn’t enough but the standard of living was great. I was born in poverty, the houses that I grew up in were knocked down by the time I was 7…

I like to ride my bicycle, I like to ride my bike

We’ve all had those relationships that seem to go on a bit longer than they should with the ever so inevitable emotional break up while both people try and figure out how things went so sour, this is kind of where I’m at with cycling. Playing bikes is the only thing I have left really…

Wiggo

I started writing this before the DCMS report came out. People still snipe at Wiggo from the margins jiffy this, hayfever that, SKY MADE YOU!!!! When the bruhaha around Wiggo took off a little part of me died. There’s a feeling that Wiggo traded when he won the tour, while he got to be the…

Ride London 100

I’ve not really done much of anything in the last couple of weeks let alone ride a bike, my Tarmac, its back wheel connected to the turbo trainer, a D&G jacket slung over the saddle and stuff draped from the bars. It seems that I can only ride indoors for so long before geeing myself…

So close

The 28th December I finally got round to killing myself, obviously it didn’t work although not for the want of trying and I ended up in hospital. I have this suicide hangover, left with this mental void. I’m alive but not living, mentally it’s a strange place to be, I can have a perfectly good…

Leisure Doping

All of you amateurs talking about suffering on your bike are idiots, who in their right mind wants to suffer anything, it’s as though to some people cycling is some sort of self punishment, you might as well take yourself into the stable with some rose thorns and give yourself a jolly hard flagellating. I…

Bob, Chad and Molly

Decades ago Trek Bikes took a steaming great shit all over Greg LeMond, they basically took a multi million dollar business partner behind the wood shed. What resulted was a messy legal nightmare of corporate America kicking the living shit out of one of the most loved cyclist the sport has produced and I took…

The Sky Fanboi Spasm

Sky fanbois on twitter have been having a collective spasm over the last week trying not to let their arses drop out over Froomey rather spectacular failed urine test and it says a couple of things about their mentality. Putting my pole in the ground I’m one of the people that say Chris cheated, as…