David Millar for CPA

David Millar has decided to run for the head of the CPA, the organisation that’s supposed to represent cyclists but doesn’t allow cyclists to vote in any meaningful or easy way and from looking at twitter the riders are sick of getting screwed over. I am not a Millar fan and there have been the…

Larry and Conor’s excellent adventure.

Cycling is an odd old sport, the fans, like me, can be slightly argumentative over things as simple as a rider crashing and having his back wheel spin while he picks up his ride sending twitter into a mild spasm as we fight over stupid claims of motor doping, it happened this year with Toms…

A bit of a TREK

It’s eight months since I tried to kill myself and the police arrested me and tried to have two male officers strip search me because they said I was a man, meaning that I didn’t meet their expectations of what a woman should look like. This led me to take to legal action and I…

the last post

I’m losing the plot, for five days I tried to get hold of my NHS appointed mental health worker and there was no one there, asking for help at the moment of bleakness isn’t something that I’m used to but for some reason after I cleaned the flat so people didn’t think I lived in…

Time to stop being shit

I’ve had a peek behind the curtain of a life without cycling and I don’t like it. I think it’s been three weeks since the heart spasm and I’ve achieved a lot of things around the home, I am a home maker, I get a fizz out of taking one step closer to the flat…

Cardiology

Having spoken to a the cardiac specialist m “ cardiac event” has been downgraded to an electrical spike “come back in 20 years and we’ll fit you a pacer” the woman said before happy “cheerio” Since the max spike of 237bpm I’ve been properly poked about the heart area, I’ve had numerous ECG, spoken to…

Garden not gears

Since what has now been classified as a ‘cardiac event’ and not riding I actually feel better about things, I’m not angry at myself for being shit but also because I get to do other things. Being a Geordie bird that predates home computing one of the things we used to do as kids was…

Deferred.

I’ve withdrawn from the Prudential Ride London 100 while the doctors figure out what’s going on with my heart and everything else. I can’t breathe, I have no energy and I collapsed at the weekend landing back in hospital being poked and prodded, more ECG and those auto blood pressure cuff things really do hurt,…

Way Out.

If you believe that American small handed orange faced gibbon you might believe that the NHS is on its knees, of course he wants to say that because the US medical system is shit and only caters to those with money. On Tuesday while out playing bike my heart rate spiked at 237 bpm and…

Still working through my damage.

Prior to my crash life wasn’t perfect, far from it, I had the same problems as everyone else. No matter how much I earned it wasn’t enough but the standard of living was great. I was born in poverty, the houses that I grew up in were knocked down by the time I was 7…

I like to ride my bicycle, I like to ride my bike

We’ve all had those relationships that seem to go on a bit longer than they should with the ever so inevitable emotional break up while both people try and figure out how things went so sour, this is kind of where I’m at with cycling. Playing bikes is the only thing I have left really…

Wiggo

I started writing this before the DCMS report came out. People still snipe at Wiggo from the margins jiffy this, hayfever that, SKY MADE YOU!!!! When the bruhaha around Wiggo took off a little part of me died. There’s a feeling that Wiggo traded when he won the tour, while he got to be the…